Thursday, December 24, 2009

Do You "Believe"? - Seven Days Of Fantastic Events and Flashing Billboard Signs

2009 has been a challenging year for most, but with belief and trust, anything is possible & 2010 will be a much better year. Don't let fear dictate your future.

I personally have had the word "believe thrown in my face like a flashing billboard in such an obvious way for 7 days straight starting on December 6th 2009... Starting with a sermon at my church that Sunday on the word "believe". The biggest thing I noticed as much as I noticed the words is the word "believe" is what is prevalent...Not the words belief or believing, but "Believe".

On the following Monday I gave a card titled "I believe" that was given to a loved one for their birthday after a huge blowout argument over that previous weekend. The weird thing is the card was bought over two weeks prior and just happened to be found upon cleaning my room earlier that day. I thought it was ironic considering the sermon that was given the day before and the argument I had 2 days prior, but it seemed perfect to give as a birthday card even though it was not a birthday card. The card seemed to strike a cord with this person and it had such a warm feeling. I knew it was the perfect gift.


Tuesday, I had a major conversation that was personal in nature so I won't go into too many details, but was on the word "Believe". This person started having doubts about relationships, getting older, whether or not they are worthy enough, financial issues and more. I talked about the sermon and the good things that have occurred in recent months that at one point seemed impossible like buying a house, finding love, winning awards for your work, winning a 2010 minivan in a grand giveaway and more.

Wednesday, I kept getting text messages stating "can you believe this" (in reference to a loved one winning a 2010 Minivan in a grand national give away). My reply was simple "What did I say about 'Believe'?" Have faith & trust and believe anything is possible. Only "fear is the only obstacle that will prevent you from achieving your goals and dreams" (c 2009 LBJ)

Thursday, I attended The Mass Conference For Women, and as I was getting ready to leave the conference, I came across this exhibitor table by an artist. I noticed the logo as it was called "Empowered Zone" with a symbol that appeared to be indigenous. I stopped and asked about the logo, which was designed by the artist with another story behind it that I will not go into. All I will say about her story is this. There are never any mistakes. If you learn from them, good things will follow. Her mistake led to a fabulous business concept. I looked on her table which had jewelry, apparel and hats. Ironically I noticed about 70% or more of the apparel had the word "Believe". I laughed. Told her the story, & I bought a shirt.



Friday, Was the culmination of the week, reflection and postings on Facebook with some pics of my items with the word believe.

Saturday, I was taking a 12yo girl to the doctor and on the way, I was telling her the story of my week with "Believe". She and her sister were completely intrigued. She asked if I was listening to the radio. I stopped, paused and asked why. She said "cuz Josh Groban is on singing 'I Believe' on the radio". I then said "So after hearing my week about the signs given to me on the word believe - Do you believe"? They both said yes. We talked about the importance of believing and how fear can pull the rug from underneath your feet. I used sports as they both played sports as an example.

I think I finally got the message!!!!!


Since then, I went to the store on December 21st looking for stocking stuffers for this same girl and her sister, and came across some cute little notebooks. One said "Believe". I stopped. Grabbed 2 of them. Laughed and knew both of these girls will understand the importance of this gift more than anything. Two days later on December 23rd, I was getting ready to wrap presents, and the first holiday gift bag out of my storage box of wrapping supplies said "I believe". I immediately hung on my mantle for all to see


So my wish for you is to "believe" that anything is possible if you just "believe".



NOW .... Why do I believe so strongly?

Let's see... I had everything. I invested at a young age. Bought my first home at the age of 19. Started a business at the age of 26. Got married, and had children. Lived in a beautiful home with almost 2 acres in a very desirable neighborhood, good school system, great neighbors, inground pool, and more.

One of my children was born with an internal birth defect that required urgent surgery at the age of 3mo old. Suffered years of domestic abuse and infidelity. Got restraining orders. Got divorced. Lost my business to my ex. Lost custody of my children on an ex-parte motion the very month I opened my 2nd business. Was forced to sell my home due to costs surrounding my bitter court battle. Was stalked. Had my tires flattened. Was harassed. My primary care doctor violated hipaa law and discussed my medical care with my ex and his attorney and when caught for failing, he retaliated. Also suffered verbal & emotional abuse from an attorney as well. Had false criminal charges brought against me 3x in a year by my ex civilly in his attempts that I can not disclose here at this point. Talk about law of attraction!!!!

In the meantime, I continued on my healing path and I volunteered a lot. It was difficult considering all the badgering, perjury, malicious prosecution, harassment & abuse being done in and out of the court room. I was determined that I was not going to let someone steal my life from me especially not my ex and his attorney. I just had doubts as to my ability find the way to do it.

The nature of my new line of work in health and wellness was very therapeutic for me. Every day is a day I enjoy going to work and helping others make a difference in their lives. It started with me. I noticed that I could not break that last string to my negative past. Why? Why couldn't I break that last string is a question I repeatedly asked myself and others for years. I was hell bent on trying to find a way to heal that and sever that cord.

The financial devastation was in excess of $350k in less than 2years.

Earlier this year the pendulum began to swing. It started with getting a new attorney, and having doubts and fears as he was a man and I did not trust due to my situation at the time. I asked for a sign that I need to trust and this is for real. If you read my other blogs, there is one that has a picture of two angels in the clouds. That was my sign that came approximately two hours after I asked for the sign.

Months later, I was emailed that I was nominated and chosen as one of the top 40 under 40 Professionals by NE Business Bulletin. I was completely astounded.

A loved one was notified a month later that they were the grand prize winner of a 2010 Minivan in a National Giveaway proving to me that miracles do happen.

Soon after, I began having signs being thrown at me including the bizarre sighting of a hawk. These are not normal sighting you would see, but instances like flying in front of your car, or landing on your car or office building, and more. Other signs include Turkey vultures on my condo's roof.

Then the news ... my judge recused himself for bias.

Then we come to the instances of "believe"

NOW .... Why do I believe so strongly?

Let's see... I had everything. I invested at a young age. Bought my first home at the age of 19. Started a business at the age of 26. Got married, and had children. Lived in a beautiful home with almost 2 acres in a very desirable neighborhood, good school system, great neighbors, inground pool, and more.

One of my children was born with an internal birth defect that required urgent surgery at the age of 3mo old. Suffered years of domestic abuse and infidelity. Got restraining orders. Got divorced. Lost my business to my ex. Lost custody of my children on an ex-parte motion the very month I opened my 2nd business. Was forced to sell my home due to costs surrounding my bitter court battle. Was stalked. Had my tires flattened. Was harassed. My primary care doctor violated hipaa law and discussed my medical care with my ex and his attorney and when caught for failing, he retaliated. Also suffered verbal & emotional abuse from an attorney as well. Had false criminal charges brought against me 3x in a year by my ex civilly in his attempts that I can not disclose here at this point. Talk about law of attraction!!!!

In the meantime, I continued on my healing path and I volunteered a lot. It was difficult considering all the badgering, perjury, malicious prosecution, harassment & abuse being done in and out of the court room. I was determined that I was not going to let someone steal my life from me especially not my ex and his attorney. I just had doubts as to my ability find the way to do it.

The nature of my new line of work in health and wellness was very therapeutic for me. Every day is a day I enjoy going to work and helping others make a difference in their lives. It started with me. I noticed that I could not break that last string to my negative past. Why? Why couldn't I break that last string is a question I repeatedly asked myself and others for years. I was hell bent on trying to find a way to heal that and sever that cord.

The financial devastation was in excess of an estimated $500k in less than 2years.

Earlier this year the pendulum began to swing. It started with getting a new attorney, and having doubts and fears as he was a man and I did not trust due to my situation at the time. I asked for a sign that I need to trust and this is for real. If you read my other blogs, there is one that has a picture of two angels in the clouds. That was my sign that came approximately two hours after I asked for the sign.

Months later, I was emailed that I was nominated and chosen as one of the top 40 under 40 Professionals by NE Business Bulletin. I was completely astounded.

A loved one was notified a month later that they were the grand prize winner of a 2010 Minivan in a National Giveaway proving to me that miracles do happen.

Soon after, I began having signs being thrown at me including the bizarre sighting of a hawk. These are not normal sighting you would see, but instances like flying in front of your car, or landing on your car or office building, and more. Other signs include Turkey vultures on my condo's roof.

Then the news ... my judge recused himself for bias.

Then we come to the instances of "believe"


What do I believe?

I am a survivor. I never give-up on those things and ideals I believe in. I am compassionate. I am giving. I enjoy making others happy. I enjoy seeing others grow. I am passionate about my work both professionally and in my charity work. I believe I can make a difference in peoples lives professionally, personally and publicly. I believe in good things surrounding court that I can not discuss right now. I believe justice will eventually be served. I believe I will have another home some day and a business with multiple locations. I believe in miracles. I believe you have to learn the lessons life has given you so you can become stronger and of coarse not repeat those lessons again. I believe in angels that are here to help you. My church members have been soooooo wonderful to me as have been many others. I believe you have to trust yourself before you can trust others. I believe you have to listen not with your ears but with your soul so you have more of an awareness and direction. I believe in true love that is good and unconditional. I believe everything happens for a reason. I believe animals can sense your frustrations, health, and attitudes in a way we can't understand , but our pets are a good gage as to how we are doing. I believe in balance and honesty.

I used the upper part about my week of believing in Christmas e-cards and the replies I got were so rewarding so far. Comments such as "the timing could not have been better. Thank you." "I needed this" and more. So what do you believe?

PLEASE leave your comments and or experiences to share with others. Together we can change the world and its perceptions.

1 comment:

DV Survivor said...

With holidays past, a Full Blue Moon Lunar Eclipse this New Year's Eve - "BELIEVE" NOW more than you ever had before and keep faith by your side every time doubt or fear take arise.